Belief and Determination uder Pressure

What would Digna do on witnessing the poor child suffering agony? Did her belief or her determination change?
A woman walked from place to place hoping to find magic that can cure the disease of a girl that has no blood connection with her. She ran from science to superstition. She asked help from don to doctors. Her belief seemed to be flexible; she seemed not to possess a specific or particular faith. However, whoever was in her situation could have acted like her. What should she do on witnessing her so-called daughter’s “body trembled and deep long moan[s], like a love call, ran through her” (70), and her body “shake[d] convulsively; …arched backward with superhuman force” (Ibid)?
The mother, Digna, was very religious; in fact, she “had the habit of talking with God” (11), she “lost herself in long prayer and confessions” (12). She devoted her time and health for God although she had to take care of her children and family without the help of her husband who usually went out for work. However, what did religions do to pay back her belief? What did God do to show His power? She didn’t see any symbols of God; what she saw was that “the Church was the friend of the rich and the foe of the poor” (63), what she noticed was that one religion considered the other as a rival. Hence, she was like a sheep without the shepherd. Inside her heart, she wondered whether her belief was an illusion or reality. And her faith seemed to be shaky.
As a result, she went to science with the hope to rescue the poor child from the torture of her malady. She hoped science could have a remedy to cure the child’s “English disease” (56).Yet in this country, somehow science was also not reliable. She asked help from a doctor, but what kind of treatment she received: “ignore [the child] and hope that when she grew out of adolescence she would also grow out of the attacks” (57). Hope. Yes, only hope. She went to him with a hope, and then she was asked to wait with a hope. If this hope wouldn’t be fulfilled, the child absolutely would continue suffering anguish until her demise.
What’s more, before obstacles, Digna was like a person downing in a deep river. She didn’t know what to believe in and what to do. Hence, she held on everything that she could think of. Somehow, she was like Callimo in “The Fortune Teller,” upon facing fear and confusion, his belief altered. He ran to the fortune teller. Similarly, Digna ran from the west to the east, from mountains to deltas with hopes to cure the poor child’s disease although these hopes were as small as a grain of sand in an ocean. For her, caring for Evangelina was no longer a responsibility, a mother’s duty. She could have given up, but she didn’t. She could have returned her to her real parents, but she didn’t. She loved the girl with all her heart and soul. She herself knew that she could never receive anything for her efforts, yet for her, health and smiles of her poor child was the most valuable award. And she contributed her entire life to achieve that award.

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